The sun is shining.....

Well not that I could ask for anymore drama in my life......well i guess that isn't fair because my life has been failry drama free for months now.....Which is always nice but I have this theory....nothing good lasts for long....and I think I am about to go into another period of crap....maybe it is my own fault but I feel like I constatly am waiting for the other shoe to drop and if it doesn't on it's own then I will creat a situation where it does.

I have been dating this great guy for awhile now.....and when I say great I just don't mean I think he is great...everyone thinks he is great. All his friends love him to death.....his family thinks he is amazing....he is smart , funny, caring,and he loves me.....I don't know how I got so lucky.....but once again....just like always I start to doubt his feelings and wonder when he is going to leave me or figure out that I am just not good enough for him ir that I am not pretty enough or he will go back to his ex....I just get the worst senerioes in my mind that usually come back unfounded but they do a great job of causing strife within our relationship because I am constantly doubting his feelings....Why do I do trhis you may ask......If I knew i would do my best to stop. This something that in the next year I wuold like to change about myself....and am even thinking about going and seeking some professional help.....Which can never be bad thing.

Other then that the usually bullshit is going on i was doing fine then do soemthing stupid like hit a freaking 7-11 ...Which i think i got really lucky and dealt with the two nicest police men in portland and will not be getting in as much trouble as it could have been...thank god for that....anyway i am beginning to ramble....I guess as my final thought....i love my boyfriend and I feel extreemly happy to have someone so understanding and loving in my life.